Guilt Released

Read the last post before you start reading this one.... Since my last post, I have chatted with the houseparents about my understanding of my responsibilities here at CB. As briefly discussed in the previous post, I thought a source of my guilt could have been because their isn't any accountability here. To put this in perspective of my life, working in the public school system for 6 years I always had someone (principal, parents, coworkers)  asking me to prove that my methods of teaching fit each child's personal needs. There is no accountability here and I was struggling with that reality. Therefore I have kind of created my own accountability system in regards to my schedule. This week I haven't allowed there to be any room for confusion of where I am or what I will be doing at anytime of the day by telling the house parents my schedule daily. The house father seems to receive the news well each day and the house mom seems to be trusting in her husbands judgement and leadership of the house.
Side note...I love watching their marriage. They show me how a christian marriage should be lived out everyday. I am really thankful to get to see this everyday and the wife isn't afraid to talk about the struggles of marriage. I have been blessed with this aspect of my experience here.
Secondly, I talked to the director in-charge of the missionaries schedules. She has asked me if I would be willing to teach an additional dance/fitness class on Tuesday and Thursday nights. That gave me a wonderful opportunity to sit down with her and hash out a revised schedule that she will present to the family. My hope is this new schedule will clear the air and clean-up any confusion I had or the house parent had about my responsibilities here at CB. The director and I had a wonderful chat and I was able to openly share ALL of my thoughts and concerns. Praise the Lord!!! I felt the guilt released after this conversation.
The revised plan is for me to work at the baby house in the mornings and teach the dance/fitness classes in the afternoons and evenings. I will still work the night shift at the baby house every 5 days because I feel that is very helpful for the family.
This is another side note but you may be wondering what the night shift entails. I sleep at the baby house on the couch and when a child cries or needs medicine, I am the one to handle the situation. As most of you know that have kids, some nights there isn't a lot of disturbance in your sleep and other nights your awake with the kids all night long. It is the same way here even though we have 13 kids living in the house. The next morning the person that took the night shift gets a break from 9:00-1:00 to sleep in their own beds. Not to shabby.
Thanks for your prayers and I would appreciate you continuing to pray that this family receives the new schedule well. I pray the Lord will use me during this time I have here at CB to change kids lives.